I still make coffee for two

I continue still.

To dream of emotions as yet unfold
To hear them words – as yet untold
To breathe in air as pure as cold
To live serendipity not mine to hold

I continue still.

To bark them trees that weren’t for me
To imagine life in twin – with I and thee
To conjure a picture of connubial bliss
To hope against hope – & perenially miss

I continue still.

To feel butterflies for when you sing
To rant and rave when you don’t ring
To crave your voice when silence abounds
To relive your laughter and all your sounds

I continue still.

To hurt when I know the knife has turned
To feel so small – my lesson unlearnt
To marvel at co-incidence time & again
To reason not now and not know when

I continue still.

To stifle the scream that’s settled within
To unleash a river and know not to swim
To grind my axe for dreams that went broke
To remember always – you won’t be my bloke

I continue still.

To think of you at least once everyday
To know you’ve forgotten we once made hay
To live knowing well – hope dies each way
To fool myself – you’ll be back someday?

I continue still.

To write these words with a crippled heart
To smear this verse & not even start
To shatter to pieces the fondness I sire
To know mine you’re not, even though I desire

I continue still.

To live each day and track not keep
To smile when the ache becomes too deep
To tight eyes shut and cradle my head
And cry myself to sleep in bed

~ by alternativefrock on September 9, 2008.